Why I BLOG

Most of my friends starting blogging. Many of them started asking why I don't blog. Then I started thinking why I don't blog. I am not a very good communicator. Atleast I think so. But I see somebody use the blogspot as a means of developing their communication. So why don't I use for the same means. Then some thing struck me. Wait a minute I am not a bad communicator I am lazy in communication. My IR friends and many other friends had blamed me saying that I don't keep in touch regularly. Yeah! I don't send mails and I am not frequent in calling friends. But when I think about this, it is really shocking and sad that I have lost many of my friends as I did not keep in touch with them. When I tried calling them or sending them an email a sense of uneasiness prevailed on me. But same is not the case with my close friends. One of my friend visited me after a year, I did not feel that we did meet for a long time. I felt the same way I used to do a year back. Does he feel the same way? that will be a question to him.

I have seen the difference between my close friends and other friends when I get in touch after long time. If I am blamed of not keeping in touch can I point my fingers on others for not sending a mail or calling me. At this juncture I cannot resist thinking of what my friend used to say "Don't judge others friendship by their character and the way they treat you. Do you treat them a friend, then become their friend either they take you as your friend or not". The live example is he himself. He started moving with everyone with out blaming anyone. Atleast he never blames me for not calling and he always initiates the discussion. I think he had the same behaviour towards all other friends. At one point of time I feel that all the friends had a single point of contact, that is him. Even, information sharing between friends went through him.

Now back to why I don't send email or call someone. I did a brainstorming all by myself thinking why? sometimes I get lot of energy and will start calling people. But it drains down immediately in a day or two. In tamil there is an famous adage " Palaya Kuridi Kathavai Thiradi". So I am back to pavilion in a short time like Ganguly. The reason I think of is, I get too much worried with day today activities ( I don't want to accept that I am lazy). Thinking of that I loose interest in the day today activities. My wife often blames me for getting lost but parents had a good opinion on this. They thought that I am a good thinker.

Sometimes I even think I am not a person who does multitasking. When I do something, I do only that and do the next activity after that. When I went for my marriage I had too much of activities to do so I wrote a project plan for my vacation. Many praised me that I am a good planner but the truth is too many things make me to confuse. This is the reason, may be in team my plan fails, because people don't work to my expectations or else I don't plan based on their work. Let me cut the topic right now as we had too much of diversion in this topic. Actually to tell the fact there is no specific reason for not calling or sending email, some of my friends understand and some don't I try to change this behaviour, but most of the attempts often ends in vain.

Back to the point of discussion, the reason I don't blog is I am not very disciplined in writing things or keeping the blog up to date. I may read some of your comments after 6 months. But why all of sudden I started blogging. How did I get in this site. Oh my god Siva I was writing a comment in your blogspot, then I got this thought as to why I did not have a blogspot so I started writing this one and completely forget writing your comments. Now I understand as to why I don't send emails or call anyone, yes I have lot of diversions. When I do onething I start jumping in to another one. I heard that this is the characteristics of "Mesha Raasi". Happy Blogging guys. Expect my call soon friends.